I don’t know about all of you…. but I’m getting a little tired of people trying to demand my response to anything. I’m a little tired of being told I have to respond in a particular way.
This is in regards to everything damnit. There are parts of the world online demanding I be afraid.
There are parts demanding I be angry.
How about no? No, I don’t think I will react.
One of the things I’ve noticed as I’ve been recovering so speak with my own mental health beasties, is that there are a lot of people who know exactly what they are doing when they try to get you emotionally riled up. Because it makes it easier for them to manipulate (regardless of noble sounding the end goal is). And then you’ve got their “flying monkeys” as some circles call them. The underlings who don’t for the most part understand why they want your anger or your fear, they’re just along because they don’t want to be the abused one. Do yourself a favor, don’t be volunteering to be their sacrifice to their “gods”.
I have to admit, were I a crueler woman and far more witty, I’d have started a troll account claiming that the masks demanded were the Mark of the Beast and not washing your hands was also a sign. The ensuing addition to the chaos would have been hilarious to me.
Which leads me to my next thing. All of this bullshit of this year, has lead to a lot of people not caring anymore about anything. That in of itself is more dangerous than any virus or government mandate. Sometimes…. I catch myself wondering if that’s not an end goal for some of the more shadowy elements across the world that are taking advantage of several situations, though not very successfully in several cases. And even if it’s the end of the not shadowy and very obvious factions that are trying to co-opt anything and everything they can gain access to.
I have to admit to finding myself feeling very callused. Disappointed in quite a few people who have their emotions to be used against them. I suppose that why I hate my emotions so much. They’re too easy to be turned into a weapon of malice at someone else’s hands. Concepts like honor and truth regardless of ugly it is, have fallen into disuse and those who seek to keep them in their personal practice get looked on in scorn. Honor and truth are almost emotions in this regard because they can be used to manipulate the unshielded.
There are a lot of people who’ve allowed their shields to deteriorate. Shields protecting their health in all regards. Constantly attacking other people online because they won’t conform to what is perceived to be the will of the majority. Forgetting that that is something railed against frequently in most of their beloved fictional stories. Bringing up something in comments that has clearly nothing to do with the point at hand because they want a fight. The addict needs their fix and many who “virtue signal” are addicts. They must say the right things else they’ll get punished. They have to show their “rosary” else face penance at the hands and keyboards of those who have failed to understand the most basic concepts of grace and compassion.
I am proposing a break. For all of us.
In August, every Friday afternoon around 4pm PST, I’m sitting down with a cup of something (non-alcoholic folks, the point is calm) for an hour. No phones, no computers or tablets or anything. Just me and a book or music playing and doing some journaling. Maybe an hour of something related to your faith. But it stays calm. The outside world is not allowed in.
How about you join me for this break? You need it.